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On this cooling Friday morning, I'm gonna end YOU!

Funny how you go around telling lies about me and making them believe that I'm the one at fault.

Maybe, YES!

I'm at fault, because I believed every single word you said.

I'm at fault for believing in all your lies and sweet talks.

I'm at fault for looking after you, giving you shelter, feeding you and provides everything that you need/want when you're not even mine to begin with.

I'm at fault for giving in to your lusts from the start when I have the choice to reject but because I loved you, I did.

I'm not perfect, neither are you!

I failed in so many ways.

I failed as a daughter.

I failed as a sister.

I failed as a grand-daughter.

I failed as a cousin.

I failed as a wife.

I failed as a person.

I failed as a Muslimah.

But one thing I've never failed - is being the best MOM to my children, no matter what the situation is.

I don't care what you wanna do anymore or who you wanna cheat on next, but you choose to use my own 'sibling' as your next victim, I am just plain speechless and went into a fit of rage when the news was broke to me!

Yes!

I cried for hours thinking about what you did.

I cried for hours thinking about the fate OUR CHILD have, having you as a father; an irresponsible and immature person!

I cried for hours blaming myself for the fate MY BABY's gonna face throughout his life!

Funny how she once said 'DO NOT TRUST HIM' and 'LEAVE HIM'!

But she's with you now, believing in you and all your sweet words.

Funny how she claimed you're a 'nice' person in and out.

That you wanna 'see' the baby but afraid of me?

I vividly remember your words that you're not afraid of anyone and you don't care?

I vividly remember you said that you didn't want the baby from the beginning, how you forced me to take those pills to kill the baby?

And yet now?

You act like you're the best guy towards my own 'sibling'?

To the both of you,

You broke my heart worst than my divorce period did.

But you both made me realize that I have my children who gave me the strength and will ALWAYS be there for me at any point of time because...

Papao (your favourite 'son') wiped my tears throughout yesterday's ordeal!

And that the both of you thought me lotsa lesson.

1. Betrayal never come from your enemies but it comes from your loved ones.

2. Sometimes blood isn't thicker than water and family will cross you quicker than strangers.

3. Be careful who you trust, the devil was once an angel.

4. I never realized I am this strong to face another obstacle in life after my divorce.

5. When a toxic person can no longer control you, they will try to control how others see you.

I may have failed in so many ways.

And don't you worry, I'll raise OUR child at my very best just like I did with the rest of the #kbrothers.

But you both failed in more ways than I did!

You both failed to be a responsible FATHER and SISTER!

I'm not gonna wish you both to rot in hell.

But I hope Allah will guide the both of you to see the truth and bring you both back to the right path, which he's doing for me!

With this, I'm gonna move on like you never existed, though you left behind your child.

With this, I'm gonna forgive the both of you for the lies, heartaches, betrayal and everything else.

With this, I end YOU and your legacy.

Dear Allah,

When life is hard, I look up to you for guidance, hope, and a friend who is always there for me.

Thank you for all the times you helped me back onto my feet despite all the sins I did.

Wa Salam.

Love,

Mother of your child and Little Sister Xoxo N.A