| MOTHER FEELS |

When someone says he/she knows what I exactly feel...

Its like a bullet being struck in me, shattering my walls, bringing my confidence down to the earth's core!

NO one will ever know how and what I feel right now because no one has ever seen me cry, shed tears or crumble down into pieces inside.

Never will, ever!

Being me means...

Putting up with all the shits I created or being thrown at with.

But I'm actually amazed at how I am able to overcome EVERY single thing without drowning further deep within!

Complimenting words from strangers, friends and families means nothing anymore now that all I want is to achieve what I aim for, to feel good and better of myself.

Not for me, but for my boys and definitely my parents.

I have to keep on reminding myself that I have to be that strong-willed individual because there are others out there looking at my strength and determination to move forward in life, in their lives!

Since Day 1 I blogged and started doing write-ups, people from all over the world, all walks of lives have come up to me saying,

I look up to you for your strength. I look up to you for your willingness. I see you as a role model to move on.

And so on.

I became a listening ear to each and every women who feels safe sharing their life story with me that I actually am already immune to being a social network listener to these women who are either abused, neglected, tired, depressed and whats not.

But what I normally reply would be,

I'm human. I have my flaws. I have my weakness towards the devil's whispers.

So please have and gather my strength with my determination to make a better you instead of just seeing me doing better myself.

Be better than me.

Look at and take me as your rival.

The lady whom you would love to do better and above or beyond my achievement.

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In fact, I have 2 extremely strong-willed Mamas whom I've now fallen in love so deep that if I have had the opportunity to just meet them and say Thank You personally, I would hug them both so tight for being my role model.

Norfasarie, a well-known entrepenuer with a specially blessed daughter.

Proved to be so strong to go through the test she's been chosen for, dealing with all the stares given by the public towards her daughter.

A loving, caring mother who provides the best for her children.

I read her post on how she wanted her dream home so bad that she worked hard for it and finally achieved it.

You taught me how to be patient and overcome the tests chosen for me, thank you.

Dhiah Mastura, a mother of 4 lovely kids, a well-known blogger who runs an online store with the jovial Nurul Aini (your IG stories cracks me up everytime I am feeling super super low to which I would actually search for just to feel happy again. Why you so cute?)

Dhiah, runs her household super duper in order despite having 4 kids. In her tight schedule, she still manage to have time for her kids as well as blog about her adventures with them.

Thank you for teaching me how to manage my schedule and remind me that my boys comes first before anything else.

Definitely not forgetting my beloved Mother whom never once gave up on me despite all the shits I did, the shame I've put her up through, accepting me and my kids whole-heartedly every single second of her life!

2018 started off smoothly for me and the #kbrothers so much so that I couldn't express how I actually feel to anyone except to my boys (they listen but end up forgetting it, BEST sharing moment ever).

I'm blogging today as a shoutout to all Mamas, Moms, Mother, Mummies and definitely each and every women out there, from all sorts of lives, every corner on this humble Earth.

Thank you for your time, effort, strength, determination, willingness, patience, guidance, love, touch and risking your lives bringing each and everyone of us into this world!

Accepting every single child of yours despite their strength, weaknesses, attitudes, tempers and hot-headedness without having thoughts of leaving our sides!

Happy Mid-Week everyone!

💖

N. A